Of Days That Pass

It is after weeks of bliss that I find myself back;

Square one, on a ground below sea level.

I'm not really sure what's going on and what the place lack

But perhaps it's just me who's not honest with everyone.



For all I did was try to build something nice,

A little thing to get me out of the place I was.

And perhaps it was the good choice, and I owe someone a lot.

Yet, it was over so quickly, I almost regret everything.



But, almost, because it is hard to regret what you enjoyed.

And it was okay to enjoy company and sharing many things.

It isn't something I'll forget, I hope so anyway,

To have shared memories and days of time with another one.



Losing something like this perhaps, it was needed,

Though it was painful to realize all of this. 

I don't mind anymore. I don't mind.

It's okay now, see, I'm just back to the beginning.



Only I grow and I'm more aware of my shortcoming.

I'll strive to be a better being as days pass,

Alone or not, and hopefully I'll be here for someone.

For I cannot live for myself anymore.



Here I stand typing while drinking,

Drinking beers on whisky, and I'm okay.

I'm okay, see, look at me in the eyes

Tell me I'm okay and I'll keep on going.

	

But at some point I won't, no matter what.

I'm selfish, look at me, I'm human.