The Passage of Time, Renewed Ideas on Nature

			

	As things change and the world does so as well, faster than the birth of new

individuals, Time always goes on no matter what happens. But, it seems that its perception

from others is different. Maybe time passes by all the same, but as we get used to it and

suffer through it, how it is perceived changes.

Not necessarily how fast it passes by, that does not change on this Earth. But how fast we

forget about what came and how we worry less about what is to come: This is the

difference. As wisdom is the offspring and suffering and time, perhaps this is what it is. A

secondary component to being wise is having this feeling that time passes by faster, even

if it has not changed.



	The best ways to change perception is to suffer over time. Minutes will be long and

hours feel like an eternity, but after a while we get used to whatever degree of prolonged

suffering we were subjected to.

	Another way, that may be needed to balance out this perception, is to be deeply interested

in something and not feel the time passing by at all. But, I believe that once this high has

passed, the lessons that could be derived from it for the passage of time are forgotten.

It would make sense, as well. While suffering we want to end it in some capacity, and we

know that eventually, it will end. And this eventuality is determined by the passage of time,

and we think of it in in varying degrees of frequency. But, if we are drawn to a fascinating

task or subject and all of our being is poured into it, then Time is not thought of, unless it is

used as a limiter. In which case it is only considered as a hindrance rather than possible

relief and teacher.



	What I would like to know, is how fast do the people who suffered the most feel time pass

by. These people also tend to be deeply scarred early in their lives, either by choice, or by

outside influences, or a mixture of both. Although this is a subject I already touched on

previously, this is more of a curiosity on the matter.

	And now I wonder if this feeling of a faster and faster passing of time is necessarily

a monochrome issue. Or if it’s an issue at all. Obviously, it sounds to be a natural thing to

happen, as life is, even if we choose to live it away from all, a hard thing to cope with and

live through happily. It requires constant self-updating through introspection by noticing

ourselves or by getting feedback from others. And, of course, a deeper and deeper

understanding of the World around us and within us as life goes on for us. Until the end,

growth is priority, so that our death can be grandiose, and we could say that maybe, in the

end, our life was worth living and fighting for.



	But, as Asbeel taught the Grigori, albeit he might not have been the greatest of teachers

and/or leader, beyond all of our grief and joys there exists a truth deeper than the one of

life. The eventuality that has to be accepted after this short display of something unusual.

Order was not created out of chaos, rather chaos was created out of chaos, entropy

contained within shells that simulated its opposite. Whatever happens after this roaring fire

(although on a small scale) will be completely different from what we were taught as a

species since the dawn of Man. We were only taught about what we are, what we were as

we lived and what we could be as we survive, until it is over. But nothing beyond life. We

can observe what ruin looks like, but to comprehend it, how deep do we have to reach

within ourselves?



	This is not the type of darkness that enables acts of cruelty or visions of death and how to

cope with our passing. It is something further out than that, something that I believe we do

not want to comprehend at our core. There must exist mental and existential barriers

preventing us from truly reaching this truth of the universe. An internal truth deep within the

core of our DNA, something that exists scattered between the atoms we are made of.

Something completely out of mathematics. And perhaps that is why we may never reach

out beyond: Science has determined life to be based on mathematics, because science

became completely barren of anything that could be even considered outside of the

material and that could be put into numbers for us to read and understand. Abstract does

not exist anymore, and anything that might be abstract MUST become material.

	Human life, just as well, became material, numbers and a statistic amongst billions

of others. Individual value was lost when Man decided to not compare itself to Nature or

God, but to compare itself to itself. Exaltation is not possible anymore, as we can only

improve ourselves and always go beyond. But this improvement is only biological, and can

never be spiritual. Man is seen as a machine and nothing else anymore. Science has

deemed that only the material is worth studying because only material can be understood.

	And yet, this method of understanding only takes into account one dimension, what it

deems to be worthwhile. Anything that is not the material is seen as useless and is put

aside and labelled as occult. Philosophy even is labelled as such. But balance is key to

everything, and if there is nothing but material, how can anything can really be

understood? How vain does Humanity has to be to even believe that Nature can be

challenged and fought against? I thought it was possible, very much so. But now I realize

that we are not meant to fight against Nature or Time. But we are meant to walk hand in

hand with Mother, so that we become equal to it, and we understand it, and this new future

understanding that could have been, would have changed our perception of Nature, 

and she would have changed her perception of us. We could have named her Sister, instead.

But as things seem to not stop progressing, and acceleration is only going to make us

descend rather than ascend, I believe that it is much too late for everyone.



	Is it possible, however, for certain individuals to reach out and be equal with Sister, and

work as a newly formed brotherhood, designed to take on the understanding of Entropy

and perpetuate what was started such a long time ago?

Maybe that’s it: Mother is not to be demonized. Maybe this is the growth needed by

Humanity. Exaltation was not meant to be achieved in a way that would break every

barriers of life. Exaltation was meant, before humanism changed its definition, to be equal

with Nature and work alongside it to make the eternity of Time have company. So that we

would not simply be a blimp. Perhaps, if there is a will to Nature, she understood that Time

may have liked some company, but at this point this is only characterization, and it is very

much likely, in my opinion, that Time really is “only” a constant of the universe and is

beyond all understanding.



	The past cannot be and should not be full of regrets. Where would we be as individuals if it

wasn’t for the suffering we went through? The joyous days and moments we felt as we

wanted to go forward? Does technology have anything to do with enabling those moments

to be more frequent, or did they make them less frequent?

Nature will keep living within us no matter what happens, no matter which path

transhumanism takes us. As it cannot be stopped, Nature cannot be either. Only, we will

be considered a failed attempt, and when Entropy comes as a devouring abyss, we will

learn then that we were wrong. But, if there is something more than the material, maybe

then this will go on. And, perhaps, this makes any believers in afterlife correct.

Does Time have a beginning? Does it have an end? I cannot remember when I

began and I cannot tell when I will end.



	If Humanity as a whole can only achieve a singularity that will prove no matter what to be

self-destructive, perhaps individuals who became fluent in all the primary aspects of life,

who became virtuous; Divine individuals (which can be considered as exaltation within the

rules of Nature) with a deep understanding of the material, spiritual and any aspects that I

am deeply unfamiliar with or cannot name for a lack of knowledge (could “Ruin” be an

aspect?), maybe they will be the ones to be able to call Mother, their Sister instead. But

within their solitary comprehension, all they could do is look with sorrow upon the eventual

state of Humanity.

	This is a deeply fatalistic attitude I took on, something I would not have liked before.

But this is not fatalistic against life, but against the eventuality that comes for us. Not this

age perhaps, but the next generations will lose themselves in drunken stupor of the

impossible growth of Man against itself. You cannot forsake Nature like this, it is fruitless,

and we are already seeing rot appear on our leathery skin.



	An understanding of all aspects of life starts with the understanding of both material

and life. Pursuit of only one brings unfulfilled potential, and leads down the wrong path. As

our road was already paved long ago, and as humans, we were meant to take it.

Technology by itself was not a bad thing. Industrialisation is not the devil that made

everything explode into an abomination. It came to be centuries beforehand, with thinkers

and scientists changing, eventually for all of us, the way life was thought of. How much

knowledge has been discarded simply because it is not deemed as appropriate for the

modern man? Again, why has philosophy been labelled as occult? And yet, we still teach

it, we still reach for it and we still practice it without any condemnation from anyone who’s

not deeply indoctrinated in modern science. Which, funnily enough, is still to this day most

of the population (who actually matter and don’t waste their life away, willingly, no better

than a roach looking for its next meal to feel good).



	Yet, philosophers must not be seen as role models or mentors, for their role is not to

be teachers, but to give their view on life and truth. It may be wrong, it may be right. As we

change as individuals, our philosophy changes with us, and it would be foolish to always

be entrenched in the same position AND reject any other view that contradict or question

our own. If we were meant to exalt in Nature, if we are indeed beings with great capacity to

be divine, then we have to keep empathy in balance as well, and understand each other to

a point where it will be easy who is on this path that was made for us. Perhaps we can

also learn from other animals, like Elephants, for their emotional capacity is higher than us

as human beings. We may be the most dominant lifeforms on this planet, maybe even in

the Universe, but this doesn’t mean we can’t improve. Only thing is, we have to grow with

Nature to understand what it is, what it wants and what to do. Improving for the sake of our

own improvement will, I repeat once more, lead to ruin. We may end the material side of

Nature, but by forsaking the other aspects, Nature will always be present and come back

in a way that will punish this complete 90° turn away from the path that was prepared for

us. Maybe a violent way to put us back on the path.



	We say Mother as it is caring, in its own way, but perhaps for reasons that are not meant to

be seen as love. We could consider them to be selfish, but if we are from Nature, then are

they really? And, funnily enough, is it not even moreso of a selfish endeavour to only care

for ourselves and only want to improve for our sake?

On a side note, a quick thing to say about animal lovers and those who argue for

their rights. Considering animals to be on the same level as human beings in their

preferential treatment, who are you to say that? Who makes you speak in such ways?

Who gave you divine authority to decide such things? The behaviour of animals has

nothing to do with what humans are meant to achieve. They are needed, as we grew

alongside them and were in a way born from them, but so are plants. Plants are as

important as animals, and you may even be able to argue that they are moreso. And yet,

they are another lifeform that seemingly has no will of its own, unable to understand what it

is meant to do.



	I truly do believe that Humanity is the one species, as a whole, that is meant to be lead to

exaltation. We were supposed to finally appreciate and work with Sister, and have a kind

relationship. It would make no real sense for Nature to not entice us to have emotions.

These go beyond survival of species, or satisfaction of needs, or even to help our next of

kin. There are certain behaviours that cannot be explained by maths and science. There

are things that cannot be explained by a material type of science. This modern view of

every single thing is not what we were meant to have.

	But, perhaps this period is needed. Perhaps we will find a way. Perhaps we did

need to expend on the material as much as we could, and maybe we will come back to a

balanced view of things, and science will go back to this balance. If this is what is going to

happen, if we really do not end ourselves through our own hubris, then Sister may actually

be something that will happen. Of course, we can never be certain, but a ray of hope is all

that is needed for us to keep going. Divinity has to be achieved, and once it is, then

exaltation can be pursued to its full extent. As an entire world, perhaps that cannot

happen, maybe one or more countries will make it. Maybe it won’t be countries, but

communities. An individual sometime somewhere will lead and help others to ascend and

be with him, and all will become true Brothers and Sisters. Nature, of course, would be

included in this.



	However, today and at this hour, seeing what happens around the world, through

the eyes of those in power or the average individual, I cannot in good conscience affirm for

certain that we will go down this path. Most of what I see is the end of an era, and possibly

of what could be. I do not want to go out and say “It might have been”. But perhaps it will

happen. The next cycle of civilization is the mob rule, but with governments trying to grab

more power, maybe we will be set back for some more time. Which is a shame, as I

wanted to see the aftermath of a mob rule. The ascension towards what could be. This

could happen, but will it?