October 2019
Today I find myself waiting on my military entrance tests to come, and in the meantime I work out most days of the week, twice with a trainer. Yet I have no work, so I spend my days preparing meals, cleaning my clothes, going grocery shopping and wandering, wondering in my home. Recently, I had an idea. Something that would create in my life a "will to live". A fair amount of times I have talked about attaining divinity, about discipline and the order of things (in a way). Today I still want to become my ideal, or close to it, although being "close to it" would be a cope-out unless I can explain it. The wish to to be irreprocheable, the desire to be a seeker of truth, to have chosen the path towards mortal divinity. The possibility to be sinless and to be good, to be beyond today's humanity. A number of people like this already exist and have existed, most likely coming from a life where they had to be disciplined. The military would provide many moral fortitudes at the cost of the corruption of the moral man. However, it depends today where you would want to go. Although you would still be part of something that has, is and will end the lives of many. Your presence would fuel that implicit hatred for humanity, veiled under the mask of patriotism and/or honor. Some would be fine with that lie, but I am fine with this truth. If lives have to be done and gone because corrupted politicians and other tyrants deemed it appropriate, then is it not fine to blindly pour the fire onto them? No, it is not. But this will serve to highlight what humanity can and cannot do, and will gauge on a scale those who may be able to go beyond nature. Only humans can remove the chains given by Mother, and ascend to mortal divinity. Life never was equal for all, and only humanity was able to make it more fair for the weak, initially. And now that enough people can grow beyond what they could if we did not elevate them as nature would have wanted, the next DNA change of humanity as a whole can be initiated. Good intentions will pave the way, and by using the opportunistics and by jumping through disgusting souls, some people will be able to realize their just dreams for Humanity. The good must be met with goodness of soul, and not of heart. Passion brings the natural side of the human, a side that leads to temporary states : The search for happiness brings its opposite, and for those who find their happiness, what they did was made others lose it, or never will they ever find it. Fulfillement is the key. The soul must be fed meaning, and a soul must be good towards his fellow Men to attain a state of mind that would make the world say "This person has lived a life that was worth it". Indeed, through our past experiences and traumas, it is our own duty to serve ourselves as singular individuals, and rise above what nature had intended for its kingdom. The world might be burning, the oceans might be "drying up", but even if humanity had the largest hand in it, they're the one that can stand still atop a place full of life and unlife; a bit closer to heaven. Progress for the sake of humanity, and not only profit (as many strive towards today. But both can coexist nonetheless), would be the ones to support. Those who deem that only progress for humanity is worth supporting are living in an utopia and will eventually fail or never be able to start. Today's and tomorrow's world will be very similar. The natural human will change no matter what, but it is the role of those in the era of uncertainty who have to push towards the good path. Towards the truth of life is towards the truth of Time. And so, today, we have to be satisfied with who we are. We cannot change ourselves like two frames of a video can be radically different yet similar. This whole thing is the logical conclusion to philosophies presenting divinity as the ultimate good. The individual has to take the path. But only those who are able to do so should and would. All this so, eventually, Humanity will reach mortal divinity in its entirity. Life will change, so that human lives can ascend.The current climate and the sins of everyone will be buried with a nature that we always tried to overcome in some way. And although the material still has to be fully controlled, the spiritual; the mind have to change a lot more. The seeds of change have to be planted, and it is through the destruction of nature and the growth of humanity atop the cinders of a dying world, that a new Humanity will flourish. That is the good, that is the path towards divinity. Forsaking nature that nurtured but destroyed us so that we can nurture and grow ourselves. But, now I cannot help but wonder... What to do after that?